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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

3 weeks to the day


Day 22 of bedrest
85 days left until my EDD

3 weeks ago today, I went into the doctors office with a high blood pressure reading of 149/92. When I got to the doctors, it was 162/102. I had +1 protein in my urine and was put on immediate bed rest with orders to follow up with my primary OB the following Friday after being given a diagnosis of PIH (pregnancy induced hypertension). 

Exactly 3 weeks later, on the day before I turned 28 weeks, I find out that it is no longer PIH but now it is mild preeclampsia. I knew this day was going to come, and after all the symptoms from this weekend as well as my 24 hour urine, I wasn't surprised. That doesn't make me any less happy about it. I know, I should be thrilled that I am still pregnant but I knew at 24 weeks, when I wasn't put on bed rest that I wasn't going to be induced. PIH isn't something that they induce for as far as I'm aware. Or at least not at 24 weeks they don't. It's been a waiting game up until now for it to turn into preeclampsia. With the hypertension, there was a hope, even a good chance that the BP meds and the bed rest would get me to full term. Of course, there is a chance that I could get to full term with preeclampsia but with my history of severe preeclampsia, the chances of that happening are pretty slim. I would say at this point, I'm praying to make it an extra 4 weeks to get to 32 weeks. 

I know that people are going to read this and think I'm just being pessimistic. That is not the case. I'm simply preparing myself for the likelihood of what could happen. And if I'm wrong, I will completely allow everyone to laugh at me and say "I told you so!" (but, so you know, you can fully expect a snotty remark and me to stick my tongue out at you because I'm super mature like that!). If you mix in the fact that the protein in my urine has literally tripled in the last two weeks, the fact that my ankles and hands swell if I'm upright for longer then about 10 minutes (sometimes shorter) and the fact that I've had daily headaches since Saturday, things aren't looking the brightest. Right now, I'm working on trying to emotionally and physically prepare myself for a preemie who could potentially spend a very long time in the NICU and spending each day thanking God that Ella is still in my belly. 

3 comments:

  1. Coming from a mama who experienced this (as you know), I think you have a wonderful attitude. I am so happy to hear you are mentally preparing yourself but at the same time cherishing every second Ella stays inside. Preemie moms miss out on precious months & weeks with their babies safely inside...to know your days together like this may be limited is bittersweet. You are such a strong mama. Ella is extremely lucky to have you loving her, and doing everything you can to keep her inside!

    And I know the guilt that comes along with preterm delivery. Just know Ella loves you no matter what, and she doesn't blame you. (Seriously, that sounds silly but it helps to remember!)

    ***HUGS***

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  2. Thanks Brittany. I would never wish this on anyone, but I'm so glad that we know each other and have both experienced this. It really helps to have someone who truly understands almost every feeling you have regarding this situation.

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  3. I should say, I'm glad that SINCE we both experienced this that we know each other. Yay for pumping at night school!!!! ha ha ha

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